Gabriel sat next to me…

My head was a mix of pain, confusion and dellusion.

Gabriel sat next to me:

- I see you trembling while your mind seems to transcend its nature and develop into an entity able to bring your body down to its knees. How come you let yourself go like that?

- I don’t know, and I’m not quite up to think about that right now. I fear for my life.

- Why do you fear? Is it you?

- Yes, Gabriel. It is me. I know there’s only one able to destroy me, and that’s me. I fear myself.

- Don’t you see you can’t build your house on a land that doesn’t belong to you? Keep yourself together. Bring yourself back, and stop planning on living an illusion. No one will be there. No one. You were born in pain, alone, it was cold and frightful. The story ends how it began. You’re no god, must I remind you, just in case you think you can change that reality.

- I thought I could if I had a partner willing to do the same. A real unity, to walk beside me wherever I am, whatever it takes. I long for that. True communion in love, in peace. Connection. Relation. Souls and bodies together.

- Poor kid. All I can tell you is what I’ve been told.

- And what is that?

- Look at yourself. Now look around you, and watch its perfection. The completion of every single thing. This is what you got. You are free to make choices. And that’s what your so-called freedom is all about. All things beyond your choices are but results, reactions and consequences of your very choices.

- I’m aware of that. But it doesn’t seem to fulfill me.

- And it shouldn’t. You’re not in a theme park. You’re in the desert, the desert of real. It is up to you to fulfill yourself and all that lies around you. Don’t feel afraid, those freaks around you are not in command. Trust life, my friend.

- What do you mean, trust life?

- Our justice if as perfect as everything else around you. There’s not even a single seed that will disappear. Just keep going on, in your righteous road. So few are up to the challenge of walking it, and you chose it by instinct. This is your life, the essence of life lying in righteousness. Remember that when the time comes, only the humble shall wield the sword of triumph.

- And I should be just swimming around, waiting for that time to come? In this sea of mediocrity?

- Don’t put yourself in such a high position. Expectations on the Misteries bring but pain and deception. I was told if the righteous sit in their court, they shall not falter. Stand behind the choices you made. If you are not guilty, then innocent you shall be labeled. In your way you must not falter. It will last until the moment it has to last and all the pain delivered by the treacherous ones will bring back peace, justice and love unto the righteous.